Wednesday, 9 August 2017

Bird in a golden cage

Sunday, 13 July 2014

My first fictional story...hope you like it.



 BIRD IN A GOLDEN CAGE


"Mom,I am just 23.Give me 2 years mom.I want to complete my post graduation and be well employed."
"Shona,u will be turning 24 soon.We have to answer society when they ask about your future.And there is nothing wrong in getting engaged.The boy is well settled,owns a lavish house,car and he is good looking too.He will definitely keep you happy.You don't have to work even."
"Why don't you understand mom.My happiness lies in working,I want to be HR of reputed company.That's all i dream about."
This was daily chant in our home which was disturbance in my sweet morning sleep.Everyday there was an argument heating up between my elder sister and my mother.I never cared to sort this matter out because 
Reason no.1:I was on my vacation and didn't want any disturbance in my peace of mind. 
Reason no.2 :No matter how hard you try,you cannot settle down the argument between two ladies without any melodrama,which i wanted least.
The consequence of this argument was my sister leaving breakfast in middle,and my mother crying like a typical daily soap mom.I personally never liked my elder sister because she always carried an air of I-am-always-right-and-you-don't-understand-anything.Being youngest kid in my home,I was always target of my parents and my sister, an ideal daughter.She was daddy's good girl and I, spoiled brat.But there was one thing about my sister which i use to appreciate most.She was emotionally strong and never cried in front of anyone.That day, first time,I saw her silently wiping her eyes.
"Are you OK ?"
"I feel like a caged bird.you won't understand it.Go away."
To be very honest this was what I expected from her.But her phrase of "caged bird"took me ten years back.

              I was nine,when this incident took place.The benefit of being nine year old is the only thing you have to worry about is your pending homework and the greatest treasure you own is your toys and marbles.I distinctly remember,it was hot summer afternoon and the time of my afternoon siesta.I was tired of playing in sun and my mom was  because of shouting at me .She dragged me inside the house and forced me to sleep.Suddenly,I heard light knocking at our door.My confused mom went to attend the visitor and i too ran after her out of excitement.Mom's tired face brightened up with a big smile and she exclaimed cheerfully "am i dreaming?is it really you?what a pleasant surprise!!"And there she was,my most favorite aunty,my mom's younger sister,Ashu.She was a smart young woman in her early thirties,always dressed up in latest trending suite,wearing matching accessories,hairs adjusted in fashionable manner and the best part 'carrying bagful of gifts and chocolates for me and my sister.'Since my sister was busy with her summer camp i was the sole owner of chocolates bought by aunty.I felt like king of the world.I was delighted by her visit(not to mention added advantage of having extra sweets bought by her). She was a working lady,living in a big city like Pune and leading a dignified life.Unintentionally,my childish mind compared her with my mother.My mom, on other hand,always carried tensed and tired look on her face,wearing old fashioned but rich saree and dealing with household work.No one would ever believe that mom was M.COM gold medalist as she would spend her entire day either behind house maids instructing them to perform different work or in front of TV watching daily soap.
        My mom warmly welcomed her sister and after having formal tea and snacks they sat together leaving me with my new toy cars to play with.
 "I am fed up of managing home and job simultaneously. It is really an uphill task for a woman.Tai,you are indeed very lucky.You don't have to start your day by chasing morning bus,you don't have a boss to answer,you don't have to take care of deadlines.In fact,you can live as you want,spend your time the way you want.All you have to do is order your maid servants and there you go,you have what you want placed right in front of you.I wish i had your life."Aunty started complaining.
My mom smiled wearily and answered her, "Ashu,grass in greener on other side.You should be happy with what you are and what you have.You are a strong,independent woman who can take control of her life by herself,who don't have to ask for money to her husband every time and moreover you have your own identity in society.I must say you are living life which i use to dream of."
               Suddenly,there was a huge wave of wind followed by loud bang and continuous chirp.We all rushed to our balcony to see what happened.The cage hung by the side of our balcony fell down due to the stroke of wind.Thankfully the parrot inside the cage was not hurt but was badly scared.My mom gently picked up the cage and placed it on the table inside.She turned towards her sister and said silently,"did you see that?that's my life.I am just like a bird in a golden cage.You feed that bird,pamper him,take his utmost care ,but you don't give him strength to protect himself until you give him freedom to fly.The bird in a cage is completely dependent on its master even for its own protection.The one who cannot protect himself can never protect others.The place of bird who can fly is not in a cage,similarly,the place of woman who is highly educated is not in her home but is in office.Today i am known to the society because of my husband,tomorrow I will be known to society because of my children.Where is my own identity?Its vanished. "
I didn't understood the inner meaning of those words then,but I am feeling the depth of each sentence right now.It was hard to believe that these words were said by mom,the same lady who is forcing my elder sister to forget her dreams and get married.WHY??Just because society was questioning her??Does the society controls life of an individual??Don't we have right to live the way we want and follow our dreams??Why girls are burdened with responsibility to fulfill the dreams of her family and society by forgetting her own dreams??I felt urge to go in my past and free that caged bird.I rushed towards my sister and hugged her tightly.She broke down into uncontrollable sob."Why me??"she said in a shivering voice."Don't worry.I am with you",was all I could say..

Paper Boats

The paper boat


date:9-6-2018
 6:00 am
          "Oh god!I must quickly put off the snooze before alarm beeps again.I can't afford any disturbance in Vivan's sleep.He deserves half an hour extra,I mean at the age of 5,its unfair to wake up my prince so harshly.Quick quick quick Nisha,you are already late."Nisha mumbled to herself.This was the everyday marathon Nisha used to run.Being a single mother,it was definitely an uphill task for her to manage office and to take care of Vivan.She was quick enough to freshen up and prepare breakfast.She put a glance at the wall clock."6:45.I am running almost 15 min late."It didn't take much longer to Nisha's 'Vivan utho beta ' change into 'Wake up otherwise I will drag you to your school'.She prepared lunch box for herself and her kid,she was almost out of her house when she suddenly remembered about her cell phone,she hurried back to her living area and grabbed her smart phone.While fastening her seat belts and giving quick set of instruction to Vivan of what-to-do and what-not-to-do at school, she managed to check her cell phone and wished that she is not too late."What??Its 9th June today,god,its my birthday.Still no messages,no miss calls,isn't there anyone in this crowded world who care to wish me on my birthday."She put the cellphone on the dashboard in disgust and started the ignition.While putting the car in the reverse gear unknowingly her mind re winded to the time ten years ago.


date:9-6-2007
12:00 am
          "Ruhi,what is it??remove your hands from my eyes,I can't see anything."
"Stop it Nishu,u will ruin my efforts,and if you do so,I am gonna kill you"
"Ok Ok drama queen,go ahead."
"Surprise!!!Happy birthday Nishu!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Oh my god,thanks Ruhi...you never fail to do something different on my birthday.Would you mind explaining me why the traditional birthday cake is replaced by these wadapaavs??Am I suppose to cut it??"
"O c'mon Nishu,don't be so ignorant.I am low on budget and plus I know you love wadapaav.I am starving,cut it fast,take your share and give me mine,and for god sake,don't attend those phone calls.Its your last birthday with me."
"Stop being Drama queen.I am not gonna die next year.Yes these are our last days in our hostel,but that doesn't mean you won't come to meet me on my birthdays.I want you to be with me in my good and bad days Ruhi."
Nisha hugged Ruhi.It was not easy for both of them to accept the fact that they will be soon separating their ways forever.It has been three years that they were roomies.Ruhi meant world for Nisha and both of them would go to any extent to bring smile on each others face,that was what Ruhi promised Nisha.We live in completely different world when we are in college.Study,submissions,assignments and exams are the few things to worry about.And those who live in hostel,their friends mean more than family to them.Nisha and Ruhi were no different from any other college going kid.Canteen meant Jannat for them,and smart boys,their topic of interest.
"What if someone breaks my heart Ruhi??"
"I will break his bones,and kick that jerk out from your life.I will be always with you Nishu,trust me,you will never be alone."



date:9-6-2018

The loud siren of ambulance passing by brought Nisha back to the reality
"Fake words,fake promises",thought Nisha.She dropped Vivan in his school
"Take care Vivan".Vivan turned back,came near to Nisha,asked her to lean and kissed her on her cheek."Take care Maa"
Nisha smiled and said to herself "I will sacrifice anything for Vivan." She pulled back her car and was on road again.She drove straight to her office.It was already 15 min late as estimated by Nisha.The angry glare of manager confirmed her that it was going to be a long day for her.She seated herself on the chair of her cabin,checked the cellphone,and there it was.'1 message unread'. She opened the message anticipating a birthday wish,but soon was upset seeing that it was message from the telecom company offering full talk time.She was about to throw her cell but stopped herself from doing so after pondering over the charges it will take to repair the cell phone afterwards or even buy the new one."What a perfect birthday,no wishes,no calls,plus the extra editorial work.Why am I expecting wishes by the way.my family had cut off all the threads with me since I eloped with Kunal and married him against their wish.Its been two years I am alone after the death of Kunal in plane crash,my colleagues don't care about my birthday,my college friends are busy in their lives, and Ruhi,well I guess I am out of her mind.Anyways.You cannot always blame others.Everyone has their own life."Nisha tried hard to brush aside the useless thoughts and concentrate on work.Soon their was a knock on the door.
"Ma'am,the upcoming issue of our magazine is here.Would you please take a glance?"The newly recruited intern asked Nisha hesitatingly.
"Come in,Keep it on my desk ."
The monsoon issue of the magazine was bit early,but she was happy with the progress.She dismissed the intern and took a glance of the magazine.
"Paper boats"she read out and was stunned for a moment.She ran her fingers across the image of paper boats and couldn't help herself going back in her mind to 9-6-2007.


9-06-2007
9:30 pm
"15,16,17...17 gifts and 128 phone calls,100 messages in total...wow!!I am so popular.Hey by the way Ruhi,its almost end of the day and I didn't get the gift from the most special person of my life."Nisha frowned.
"What??Unbelievable!!Kunal didn't give you gift yet.That is so irresponsible behavior and that cannot be tolerated."Ruhi winked.
"Idiot!I am talking about you silly.You didn't give me my present yet.And Kunal,he gave me this large teddy bear and box full of chocolates."Nisha smiled.Her already pink cheeks turned red by thinking about Kunal.
"Oh!!look at you...somebody is blushing...somebody is in Looovee."
"Don't change the topic Ruhi.I am expecting a gift from you."
"Okay meri jaan,wait."Ruhi opened her locker and took out a notebook from it.She came towards Nisha and handed her the notebook.
"What is it??"asked puzzled Nisha and opened the notebook gently.
"Paper boats??"Nisha took out ten paper boats which were arranged between the pages.
"Yes,Paper boats.Each one symbolizing a happy moment.Your birthday comes in the first week of monsoon .Do me a favor Nisha,on every first rain of monsoon,read the message written on one side of the  paper boat, write what you wish for on the other side and sail it.Just try to believe that your prayers will be heard.And yes,remember me."Said Ruhi trying hard to fight back the tears.
"Oh meri Filmy Basanti,ab rulaygi kya??This is the best gift ever.Yes I will do as you say."Nisha said wiping tears.

09-06-2018
5:30 pm
Nisha felt dampness in her eyes.
"I wish I hadn't obeyed your words Ruhi.I wish I hadn't sail those boats.At least I would have one left today,and I would wish for my best friend back in my life."Nisha wiped her tears and left her cabin finishing her work.She headed to the day care and picked up Vivan.The smiling face of Vivan and his tight hug would make her forget all the stress of the day.She drove back home.
"I lost my keys of the home Maa."Vivan said trying to suppress his smile.
"Never mind.We will do something."Nisha was too tired to scold Vivan for his irresponsible behavior.She parked her car and unlocked the main door of her house.It was already raining outside.It was unusually dark inside the house owing to the cloudy weather.It resembled the dark sorrow of Nisha's heart.She switched on the light of living room.And their it was on the table.A paper boat.She rushed towards the table and carefully picked up the paper boat.It was then she found out plateful of wadapaav on the table.And two hands blinded her eyes and a known female voice whispered,"Happy birthday Nishu.I will be always with you Nishu,trust me,you will never be alone."".
"Ruhii"exclaimed Nisha.
And the paper boat ,well it was saved for yet another wish!!

The letter

"Why don't you understand Debs??she is not good for you.I know her,she is not serious about this relationship,she did the same thing in the past.Trust me,She will betray you and leave you heartbroken,crying." "Who the hell do you think you are Aastha??you are just jealous , nothing else, and that is the only reason you are passing your psychotic judgements about her.I know she loves me and I don't want YOU to interfere in my life and my decisions.Who are you to tell me what is wrong and whats right for me??Just get lost." "You know what Deb,you deserve to be betrayed.You are such a fool who fail to care about those who genuinely care about you.Guess what Deb?I am done with your friendship,or should I say,FAKE friendship.You were right.Who am I to interfere in your life.Go to hell.",Aastha screamed at Debashish,She threw her cell in disgust.Anyone could guess that she was concerned about her friend more than anyone else.
     Aastha banged the door of her room in fury and rested herself on the chair.She was furious and still was in disbelief that her best friend Debashish said those harsh words.She took out the pen and paper and started scribbling slang about Deb.Tear drops fell upon the paper."I am strong.I am not crying.Why should I cry for that jerk??I am not crying.Why these tears don't stop??",Aastha sobbed over her broken friendship.She was sure that Deb won't come and apologize about what he did.She decided to write a final note to Deb.


"
Dear Deb,
   I don't want to use Dear anymore before your name.Aise koi gussa hota hai kya apne best friend se??You may term me as emotional fool that in the age of whatsapp I am writing a note to you.But I don't care.You don't want me to interfere in your life,okay,I won't.But I will answer your question about who am I to suggest you what is wrong and what is right for you? Deb,I am the one who used to complete your assignments when you use to bunk the class,I am the one who stood with you even when you were wrong and others were right,I am the one Deb,who never failed to messaged you and ask you about your whereabouts when you were away.I don't remember the last time you were feeling down or lonely after I befriended you.I cared about you because I loved you.But yes,these things and these words won't matter you anymore because you are in the false impression that she loves you.I never speak a word until I have proof about it,and this i don't need to explain because you know me very well.Your girlfriend was ex-roommate of mine and I know her and her concept about relationship and love very well .I could have said you this before, but you were not in state of mind to hear even a single word  uttered by me.Anyway,you were right,its your life,your choice.Deb,can't you see,why am I trying hard to prevent you from getting hurt? Do I really need to explain this to you?I might sound like some cheap daily soap vamp who comes in the way of two true lovers :p.LOL.But I am not.Its just that I don't want my best friend to undergo the pain and that too knowingly.I love you Deb,you belong with me and.... (Wait,What am I doing??Am I out of my mind.'Love you Deb??'No way.I too have some self respect.why should I be the one who initiate patch up.And after he yelled upon me.I can't do this.And at this point of time I will be fool to display my emotions and love to this jar head.).And the letter went into trash. After an year or something of speechlessness between Debashish and Aastha.

"
Dear Aastha,
       I don't want to use Dear anymore before your name.Aise koi gussa hota hai kya apne best friend se?? I might seem to you foolish that in the age of whatsapp I am writing a note to you.After reading this,you will term me as emotional fool.But I don't care.It is like one year and you are still acting like a perfect stranger.I know you must have sobbed bitterly after what I said.You must have scribbled some really bad hindi slang for me .I didn't had any courage to show up and apologize you after what I did.I miss my cute Aastha .I agree that i was kind of egoistic and didn't bother to come and apologize.I took you,your care and your friendship for granted.  Its bit late,but I am sorry Aastha.
             
         Don't you remember our friendship??I use to completely depend on you for assignments when I bunked.You were the one who were with me every time, even when i was wrong and others were right.Your daily messages wishing me 'good morning' made my day.I don't remember the time when i was down or lonely when you were by my side.But now that you are away there is no one to hold my hand and console me.There is no one around who will wipe my tears.Yes Aastha,you were right about that girl.She betrayed me and left me in tears.I was fool not to realize your care and affection for me.But now that you are away,every moment I feel that I am nothing without you.Yes Aastha,I love you.I didn't see how hard you tried to save me from the pain of breakup.But the fact that you are not with me hurts me even more.Your simplicity,your innocence and your straightforwardness,every bit of yours made me fall in love with you.But I was afraid that you will mistake me as a flirt and break our friendship . We are out of our college  and its been so long that I haven't seen your face.I want to make up with you.I wish I didn't act like a jerk then.But still I have time to say you that I love you.I want to be with you for my entire life.Yes Aastha I love you and I want to marry....
(Door bell rings.Damn it I hate this disturbance.Who 's there??Postman??and what is it??Marriage invitation.Aastha weds Utkarsh.WHAAAAAAAATTT??).And the letter goes into trash.

Moral:Its better to mend your broken relationships as early as possible,otherwise you will be left with bitter awkwardness.


Neha

Tuesday, 8 August 2017

Poet in Coma

When my soul screams dieting
and my weighing machine is just about to cry
all I can hear is french fry with adrak waali Chai
When the poet inside me goes in Coma
But world tells me to give writing another try
all I can remember is french fry with adrak wali chai.
When I want to detach from the world
lost in the search of new high
I find my love in french fry and adrak wali chai

Tuesday, 27 September 2016

encourage

"What if I fall??"she typed.
"what if I fly??"the auto correct suggested.
Just what she needed.
The technology wasn't that bad .

Monday, 26 September 2016

GIFT

Eyes wide open,the girl stared at blind stranger.
She closed her eyes,felt his face with her hands and exclaimed
"thanks for this wonderful gift Baba!!"
The dark world of father illuminated with light after giving her daughter a gift of sight.

Wish

She asked for lean body,milky white skin,branded clothes,stable life  and attention.
GRANTED.
Genie transformed her into mannequin.